This is hard for me to write
but here it goes...
I am not really sure where to start with this or how it happened, but it did.
I just stopped.
I gave up.
I threw in the towel.
I had no motivation.
I had no desire.
I lost my mojo or whatever you want to call it.
It simply just went away.
There are a couple of things you should know about me...
When I do something, I REALLY do it.
I really dedicate my life to it.
Sometimes it takes over my life and it becomes the only thing I can think about.
It becomes the only thing I do.
I neglect all of my other responsibilities.
I become obsessed
I have done this many times before
I can bake and bake and bake
I can exercise, and exercise, and exercise
But then something happens
My motivation just dies and I stop doing what I loved so much
I never question myself and I just move on to the next thing (If there is anything to move on to)
When I went to see my family in MD a few weeks ago, I continued to take a picture everyday
However, I did not have time to be obsessed with photography
I didn't spend time editing photos, writing my blog, or checking every photography page.
It was sometime after my husband's birthday that it just happened.
I had no desire to take a picture everyday
I didn't want to carry my camera with me everywhere I went
I stopped thinking about how something would make a great photo
I rarely looked at other photos online
I didn't know why, but I just didn't care
This is the first time that I have ever
TRULY regretted just stopping
I promised myself at the beginning of the year that I would complete this project.
I have let myself down. I should have taken a photo everyday, even if it was a photo of the crack in the floor.
I am upset with myself because I should have celebrated my 100th photo with my fellow 365ers
However, I have just decided to get myself together and pick-up where I left off. I will just be a few days behind, but I promise that I will see you at the finish line.
BUT FIRST
I want to thank everyone, especially my husband, for your encouragement. Without you guys, this would probably be another things that I started, but never finished.
So here is where I left off...
March 29, 2011
88/365
Black Bottom Cupcakes
March 30, 2011
89/365
Flashlight Lighting
March 31, 2011
90/365
Behind the Lens: A Self Portrait
I missed a day here
April 2, 2011
91/365
It should be 92/365
Baby Elie Wolf
6 months old
April 3, 2011
92/265
Philadelphia Skyline from Fairmount Park
April 4, 2011
93/365
Oreo Cupcakes
April 5, 2011
94/365
Birthday Apple Fritters
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This was probably one of the BEST desserts I've ever made. I finished it with Vanilla Ice Cream and some homemade Dulce de Leche drizzle |
April 6, 2011
95/365
Paws
I missed April 7, 8, 9, and 10
April 11, 2011
96/365 (This should be my 100th. My milestone)
Growth
April 12, 2011
97/365
My Final Project: Portraits using only natural light through a window
I know I am a good photographer, but I want to be great.
I am looking forward to the rest of the year!
XOXO,
Aasiya